I just finished my first gig since December, and it felt GREAT!!!! (Yes, the all caps “great” was entirely necessary.). I loved it. There were hardly any people by the time I started playing, but I didn’t care–I was playing with real musicians again. They were all very good, especially the other sax player, so it was a little intimidating when I kept losing my spot on the rides (I couldn’t remember when they ended 8P). However, they were all very nice and encouraging. After playing with them, I am able to pinpoint my weak spots more easily and know what I need to do to improve. Also, tonight gave me more confidence about performing in other locations, such as on the street. I was still a bit intimidated by the idea, but now I think it will work. I need to just keep practicing and go out there and do it.
Mantra for today: “I can do it. I think I can. I think I can. I think I can”
PS: I also had a job interview earlier this week, and I will be a Mellow Mushroom server starting in June. XD. I hope everything goes well.
I officially started my summer job search yesterday. Sadly, I was a little too late for one of them–a local newspaper already hired their summer intern–but I know I can find something, even if it is restaurant work. It would give me a more varied work experience, and I think I could do well as a waitress or assistant cook. (I have a passion for cooking and fine dining.) One person suggested I try working as a performer on the restaurant circuit. A number of local places are hiring musicians several nights a week. He said to let him know when I’m ready, and he would see if his contact–who said he wants to help others find gigs–would have any suggestions on available places. I want to do it, but I’m afraid to rely completely on performance for my regular income. Then again, it might be the right push I need to do it. I’ll continue looking for a regular job and practicing my music; we’ll see what happens.
Spending a night enjoying the pillows…
It’s the end of the semester, and I’m looking for a job again. I received a school position for the fall and spring, which means I will have some sort of definite work during those times. Right now, I need a job for the summer and possibly part-time in the fall, etc. I can’t go back to the music store. I need to grow, and if I go back, I know I won’t. I’m going to apply to a few places and see what happens. I made a list including graphics and video places, as well as restaurants. I think I should be able to work somewhere. Mostly, I want to get off my butt and play music somewhere, even if it’s as a street performer. I need to do it to overcome my fear. I think, once I start doing it, it will be easier to continue. Taking the first step is the hardest part. I managed to play for some family members a while back; now, I need to play on the street. I think playing there will work best, since I won’t have specific people watching me in a room. We’ll see.